I’ve known I wanted to go into book publishing or editing since the eighth grade.
I love reading and writing so this was the perfect job choice for me. There was no question in my mind.
Everyone that knew me admired that I knew what I wanted to do with my life.
I had everything planned out.
I knew what classes to take and just how many years it would take to finish. I wanted to go to graduate school in New York and live my life there working at HarperCollins.
But now I don’t even know what I want to do. For the past semester, I’ve been lost and stressing out on what career path to take.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my future and what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I hear cliche things like “Choose a job that you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life.”
But what if the job I love doesn’t pay enough to support the lifestyle I want?
I want a job that will help me and my family be financially stable.
I want a job that is in high demand — a job that both my parents and I can be proud of.
Choosing that in a matter of four years is difficult.
I’ve taken different classes from different majors, and I happened to like all of them, which made it even harder trying to decide on a career.
My parents urge me to study something other than English because what can someone do as an English major besides teach.
No matter how many times I tell them there are other options besides that, they just don’t think it’s the best choice for me.
Regardless of this, they still support me.
I’ve thought about being a nurse, an accountant and even an engineer — science, technology, engineering and math jobs that will provide me that secure future I want.
Unfortunately, I’m not good at math or science.
I don’t know what I’m good at. I don’t know what I’m capable of. I thought I did, but now everything just seems to be out of my control.
I have two years of school left, and I still don’t know.
I wish I could be everything. I don’t want to be restricted to just one path, but that requires more schooling and money, something I can’t afford.
Hopefully I’ll be able to make up my mind soon.
Daisy Dardon can be reached at [email protected] or @daisydardon on Twitter.